Torn

Chorus)

I'm torn apart please someone help/
I'm falling apart please somebody help/
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me/
I'm torn by the scars I gave someone else/

(Verse 1)

I always knew life wouldn't be easy/
For me, or the guy I just said thank you too/
And I have never helped anybody/
Thinking that once I was done a thank you was due/
I am not torn because of humanity/
Or what any one person has ever done to me/
I am torn because who I plan to be and who I am never once come into one you see/
Maybe I see things in a different light/
Maybe saying these things isn't right/
Where did I go wrong what am I missing am I/
Just explaining this in a twisted sight?/
Please don't miss what I'm given I/
Want you to see that Jesus died/
Yes I know that I am forgiven but why am i?/
Laying here praying asking God about what is right/

Or what is wrong when it comes to sovereignty/
Tell me God how I oughta see/
Who you are and who I oughta be/
Am I in the dark or in an odyssey/
From the start were you not in me/
Look in my heart I have God in me/
How do I understand who I am in you/
If I'm stilling yearning to understand what's true/
I try to smile more than I cry/
And every time walk away wiping my eyes/
Is it suppose to be a never ending fight/
Or am I over here just living a lie/
Or is what I'm saying make sense in your brain/
I wanna make sense of the pain/
God I am torn apart and confused tell me who you are not peoples doctrinal claim/
Someone closest to me told me to give the fear to God but truth is if I'm speaking openly/
Why should I give all I got over to him off of the basis of I'm simply hoping he/
Answers my prayer honestly all of these questions never cease to continue provoking me/
Probably should shut up now cause all I'm learning once again is that ima broken being/

(Chorus)

I'm torn apart please someone help/
I'm falling apart please somebody help/
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me/
I'm torn by the scars that I gave somebody else/

(Verse 2)

I feel like my effort are some peoples biggest fears/
At least that's how it appears/
Pretty crazy I told that very thing to someone I still believe in and hold very dear/
I guess I deserve the hurt the I'm feeling now/
I preserved my worth into a bank account/
Only to learn my worth wasn't in the bank amount/
But whether or not you can learn to lay it down/
And learn that the worth of a man is not the worth of a man/
Or whether or he's got working hands/
But whether or not he can be a godly man and become more than a godly plan/
To live your life laying it down for another person/
Praying into the night "God show me the purpose"/
Hard to slay my enemies when I not a friend of me/
Hard to not pretend I am more mature than I am/

My biggest weakness isn't the struggle for meekness/
I struggle with living for Jesus/
I feel like i just blow every opportunity/
And can never quite get to a proper unity/
Even that's not what I'm trinna do you see/
All I want to be in life is to be the happy couple/
But my failures won't ever let that come to pass/
Maybe I don't understand will I ever get past/
Being torn left and right constantly be my past/
Honestly talking about this is just pouring gas/
I can't go anywhere cause I can't read this map/
And I can't read the signs/
Does anything last/
If I don't become more than I guy/
No matter how hard I try/
No matter how far I climb/
I feel like all I do is recline/
Always giving a 10 outa 10/
Feeling like I'm not worth a dime/
I pray God forgive me even though I know I'll do it again/
Once again do it to him/
Why do I feel like all I ever do is sin/
Why do I feel like nothings changing/
Why do I feel like everything's rearranging/
Last 2 bars aren't the same listen to what I'm saying/
Is the existence of life magic?/
Or Is the existence of life tragic?/

(Chorus)

I'm torn apart please someone help/
I'm falling apart please somebody help/
I'm torn by the scars that were given to me/
I'm torn by the scars that I gave somebody else/