Beautiful pain

[verse 1]
Im fighting for my dream
Livin in Hell itself
Just listen don't make a meme
Get a degree to putt on the shelf
Help me in my way ya Raheem
Nobody can hear my scream
The world is turnin into a dark theme
I think it's gonna take so long to be agleam
I'm afraid to face it
I keep thinkin of it
I'm good but not in this
I'm not tryin to prove it
But what if i missed ?
Keep thinkin what I'll get
I've been through this shit
I'm tryin to forget
Mama I'm sorry I know it's to late to regret
I swear I'll make you proud
I just want to hug you in front of this crowd
But I know these dreams won't become true
So I made an big statue
Just for you
In my mind
I saw it every time I grew
I don't pray
God can hear me anyway
Only god can judge me as pac used to say
What's the wisdom of takin who we loved away
I know that there's difference definition for you
But at least let us know to know what to do
God I believe in you but im just asking
Now some fools gonna critique me
I'm not interested as you can see
So don't bother and shut
You're not my father you such a nut
Still not the one I'm tryin to be so what
It's just a

[Chorus]
A beautiful pain
I've been such a vain
My fear rise it drives me to insane
These voices shouts you'll keep doing this over and over again
I've to make a lot choices to win this game
You're going to know my name
I don't seek for fame
I just want to get out of these flames
Walk of shame
Please break this chain
Twenty nineteen blowed my brain
So much load i can't contain
I walk on road i walk in rain
Tried to get out but nothing changed

[verse 2]
I'll try till I die
I'll beat this lazy ass I won't be shy
Me vs this fuckin world won't be a tie
I'm fighting everyone even myself
Few people helped me through this war
My dad he thought that he was helping
But every time he spoke I hated it more
Can't you feel it in your core
It'll be a long way with many a closed door
Don't be a whore
Dad please stop i don't wanna hear you anymore
It's your future
If you stayed like that it won't be pinky life
You'll be hated by your wife
Stop it don't say another word
I feel like I'm gonna stab myself with a knife
I don't have Suicidal thoughts
But they keep pushing on till you cry
Fuck this life
We all know this is a lie
Is it a farcry
Nah its do or die
It doesn't come by
You have to try boy this is your life
Alot of tears you have to dry
All you got to do is mourn
Now get up there and start this on your own
Sometimes you'll be alone
No one know it but you know it in your bone
Get out of this zone
( where am i ? )
What is home
I don't feel like I'm in home
Four walls for four hours starin in these papers
So much to do so much labours
All I think about is when I'm getting out
What this life's about
It's about surviving no doubt
Why we have to suffer
What's the end
Where are we going brother
I can't keep walkin further
Keep going man nothing left
Don't be that fucker you're about to get some rest
God put us in this test
Who can get to the crest
Keep climbing man
It's just

[Chorus]
A beautiful pain
I've been such a vain
My fear rise it drives me to insane
These voices shouts you'll keep doing this over and over again
I've to make a lot choices to win this game
You're going to know my name
I don't seek for fame
I just want to get out of these flames
Walk of shame
Please break this chain
Twenty nineteen blowed my brain
So much load i can't contain
I walk on road i walk in rain
Tried to get out but nothing changed

[part II :]

[verse 3]
I found my self
I'm fighting harder now
Can't keep lookin back so ciao
Don't let the past make you sad
Trust me it won't be long
You should know what's right and what's wrong
Good vibe in this song
Lookin to the full picture now I know what's the beautiful pain
It's when you break the chain
When you not a vain
Don't use your brain
Love the pain
This life won't be your main
Let's learn about the F8
You should stay like it
Always straight
Don't think that i'll will Date
That girl Her eyes a clickbait
I can't face my fate
First try and big failure
Is it in your nature ?
To be hateful
She was my friend for long time
We talked about almost everything
Also she used to sing
But you forgot so fuck you I'm not going to cling

[Chorus]
I'm the one I tried to be
I feel pride i'm killing spree
Don't hide that you agree
You know it inside i'm like Chun Li
From that game street fighter V
I'm the law i'm the one who referee
Hit the beat feel free
Flyin high that's my destiny
To cross the sky to cross the sea
The world's your's keep going that's the key
Work hard then have some glee

[verse 4]
Now it's bright
You finally can see the light
Don't know what's the right
But im walkin with it I think I might
I haven't slept well that night
So here we go again Start this fuckin fight
I feel like I'm not myself
There's two persons inside my head
You can't do it stop tryin man
No trust me homie you can
It's not worthy you'll end up dead
There's hope even if it's a shred
However it keep going like that all the day good night I'm going to bed
As em said I can't keep livin this way
So I'll destroy the chain
I won't be that vain
Fuck the brain
Don't think twice as jackson said
God figured it out look forward instead
Keep it in your mind This is how life goes
Today you born tomorrow you six feet under the snows
Don't think of the end think about how humans arose

[Chorus]
I'm the one I tried to be
I feel pride i'm killing spree
Don't hide that you agree
You know it inside i'm like Chun Li
From that game street fighter V
I'm the law i'm the one who referee
Hit the beat feel free
Flyin high that's my destiny
To cross the sky to cross the sea
The world's your's keep going that's the key
Work hard then have some glee

[verse 5]
Just two places in my map
Twelve hours facing this world alone what a scrap
I'm filming my life on the snap
Cause I know it won't be better than that
Everyday it's getting worse
More enemies to meet and more combats
Why i have to be in this routine I'm already getting bored
Do what you do everyday in the same time
Meet same people and goin with the same sign
I have to sleep every day at nine
Wake early so tired I don't feel fine
But I know no one can be till he face hard days
Bro we're runnin in the same maze
Facing the same shit since we 9
I know I'm not killing this rhyme
You helped me clarify the message
Every time I get lost you helped me to manage
When i'm with you i forgot my damage
Thank you for facilitating the challenge
It was hard year but we had some fun
Now it's done
I've learned so much with you
All i needed to have this crew
Who always cared about me
Just have faith in your god in yourself in your friends in your family
Now turn this of and work hard rapidly