Lost You

Verse 1: (AJ)
I don't wanna lose you
But I lost you
It hurts so much that I take anti-depressants
Never hesitant, progression
Depression in my life
I got a knife for my wrist
Memberance' of our lists
Membered' you got pissed
Then the clock hit fucking zero
Killed yourself
Why'd you do this to yourself?
Taken down a shelf
Hung yourself with a belt
I'ma fucking kill myself
Got my anti-depressants and anxiety pills
Hopefully this'll give me thrill
Maybe it'll lemme see her again
See her again in heaven
Even after her neck was bent
I wanna see her
My intent
Ima take some codeine
Mix it into lean
To give me relief
Fuck with these ima OD
Ima die a fucking OG
Killed myself because I lost someone
Shit that helps a ton
Maybe I'll wake up in the hospital
No I'll die
Goodbye
I'll reunite with her
I didn't know this is where I would turn
I lost her
Fuck

Verse 2:(Zaint)
Yeah, I've been feeling numb
Shit's been getting so crazy now
Can't even seem to think straight without having a complete meltdown
Yeah, I haven't been right in my brain
All these demons, yeah, they coming the next day
And you can't live without me but I don't think you did
Fuck it, with everything crazy I'm a love sick kid
I swear I feel like I'm a [?]
Listen with hood but it hasn't been the same
But with my life [?]
Told me it'll be fine but I just want you to be here right by my side
Everything I imagine, I won't be alive
Told me forever I guess that was a lie
I feel like I'm sad because I sit and I cry

Chorus: (Zaint)
I can't seem to numb this pain
It just won't go away
I swear that I've been caged
I want to see your face
Can't seem to numb this pain
It just won't go away
I swear that I have changed
I just want you, hey, hey

Verse 3: (AJ)
It feels like everyone left me
You don't understand I feel empty
I've fallen into depression lately
But we're all depressed ain't we?
You and her
Him and I
He and me
I'ma get ready to flee
This world then I'll be free
Take a couple xanax and codeine
Down the methadone
Oh I'm so alone
Grab the belt to break my bones
Shit'll kill my dome
Grab the chair and hang the belt
I don't care I hate myself
Fuck
I'm sorry for all the pain I've dealt
I just wanted to help
Goodbye
I'm so sorry
I'm going to hell
No one can stop me
Please don't cry over me
Just let me be
I'm choking, I can't breathe
I feel so alive
I'm hoping this'll take my life
Then I'll be dead
Gone and died
Put on my gravestone
Fuck this life
Then it'll be done
I can't hide
This shit's getting tight
I can see the fucking light
The clocks bout' to hit zero
And I can't find my hero
I'm so alone
Goodbye
Fuck