Dark Shades (Part 1)

Searching no I can't find
A safe path through these landmines
Life's like a campfire, so
You gon' sit around and watch the embers burn low
Or stand up and gather more wood before it snows
It's all about the choices you make, pick a road
Even Robert Frost, himself, couldn't take ‘em both
To ourselves we made an oath:
“No matter how painful;
Remain faithful
That's the main goal.”

Oh, it's so cold
This code is all I know

And though I'm frozen
The melting process is way slower than expected
Supposed that's time to learn a lesson
Reflecting; all the while
Stare my reflection down
Almost as if to put him underground…

Now I know that I can't sleep
Knowing you're not next to me
Now I know that I can't wake
Seeing through these Dark Shades
I know you had it hard
Living a lie in the stars
You'll save yourself from your scares

I'm still trying to learn right from wrong, when I'm
Feeling like I don't belong, I
Dig deep to my heart song, you know
I've never felt so alone
I'm still feeling things I know I shouldn't be feeling
I know that I should start the process of my healing, but it's
It's emotions that I'm dealing with, I
Loose control of this heart I'm reeling in

Standing on the edge
Feels nice, but I'm running out of breath
With no regrets I take my last step
Will I fall or will I live?
Lord please forgive; Here we go again
It's like I got a knack for backtracking
Tossed in the paddy wagon
Couple times for some minor crimes
Hey, what can I say, I got nothing to hide
Guess I'll keep my head down till the pressure subsides…

Now I know that I can't sleep
Knowing you're not next to me
Now I know that I can't wake
Seeing through these Dark Shades
I know you had it hard
Living a lie in the stars
You'll save yourself from your scares

Talk's cheap, believe me
Where'd the trust go?
When the white lies recover the fumble
On the path to get it back
Had to rummage through my past
But somehow, the deeper I dug
I couldn't help but laugh
The pursuit of fool's gold, put modestly;
The quickest way to sum up my policy
Summer '09's philosophy was
Party hard, be dumb
These two things wrapped around my mind like a tree trunk
I could be something; or, on the other hand
Turn around, take that time, and make the least of it
What would reach us? Later that year
A bunch of G stuff, tall tee's, velour, and other kinda Prima-
Donna, like drama type, ignoring my mom's advice
Soon led to desperate times and other kinds of fights
A stick of dynamite, whose fuse grew shorter as the time went by
Following the footsteps of the one I idolize

Now I know that I can't sleep
(Never even got a chance to say goodbye…)
Knowing you're not next to me
Now I know that I can't wake
Seeing through these Dark Shades
I know you had it hard
Living a lie in the stars
You'll save yourself from your scares