I'm Sorry

[Verse One]
A lot of things don't make sense to me often
Most my life spent being laughed at and walked on
But one thing I do know for certain
Is you didn't deserve it (You didn't deserve it)
You didn't deserve being blown off and pushed away
All for one mistake, maybe multiple but we're all human
We're all the same, we both pray
We both sin every day, we can change
But the past is what we tend to think about
And your love is all I would dream about
I had all this time and i couldn't forgive
As hard as I tried i couldn't fucking forget
All the stupid shit that I've been through
All those fucking years i had spent without you
I don't know what its like to be in your embrace
I can't even remember your face
I was sixteen when you finally reached out
It was the only time you could since i got kicked out
I hate how i said i hated you every single time you'd call
If my son did that to me I'd be so fucking lost
It would cut me deep i know its true
But every time I said it you just told me you knew
But you loved me, I see all this now god damn, I'm so sorry

[Verse Two]
I apologize but now it's too late
I waited too long two years since the day
God took you away
Now you're up with the angels singing amazing Grace
Looking down on me, I wish I could see your face
Hold your hand in mine and look into your eyes
Maybe then I could finally say goodbye
Cuz what happened two Augusts ago just wasn't right
There's not a day that goes by with you not on my mind
I lie all the time saying I am alright, when there's a struggle inside
I'm trying to fight the tears in my eyes so no ones seeing me cry
God damn now you got me so terrified, of losing somebody else
I used to hate you for putting me through this hell
But I can't blame you I was doing it to myself
I should have picked up the phone you needed help
Now all I can do is hope that you hear me
See me crying for you I hope that you're near me
So you know I loved you, so you know that I cared
I hope you know when you died I was there
I hope you can forgive me for what i said to you
Forgive me for that song I read to you
I hope you know when I got home I threw them all away
I hope you can hear me say I'm sorry
Losing you was worse than getting taken away
I've been fucked up since that day
The only way I got through was my only friend
My brother, I can't wait til I see you again
I can let go of all the regret I have
I can finally leave it in the past
I just hope you accept my apology
And welcome me into your arms
So I can finally hug my mom