Feel Better

[Instrumental intro]

[Verse 1]
I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed

I don't wanna feel better
I'd give anything to miss you again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna get under it instead

[Verse 2]
The book sits on top of clean and messy blankets
On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night
When I get in it late
And late at night I'm chugging Gatorade
And someone's breaking up when I crack up
Because I know I'll never know just what to say

I'm a communist, a terrorist
An [?]
'round a sad girl in a dorm room
Living out the shady Christian plot of "Twilight"
Or "The Bible" or "The lover" by Duras
Where I'm just really fuckin' selfish
And really fuckin' lost

[Chorus]
But someone loved me
Someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me
And I fuckin' loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I fuckin' learned something
I had my kink-

[Spoken]
I don't wanna feel better

*Sharp breathing*
(I don't wanna feel better)
(I'd give anything to miss you again)
(I don't wanna get over it)
(I wanna rip it to shreds)

[verse 3]
We kept our liquor in a suitcase
Underneath my bed
And we drank it to go out or just stay in
[?]
A way I'll fuckin' never have again
The sun has began to set

I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut
I am an awkward teenage version
And I swear to kinda laugh a lot in bed
But other times I cry or don't make noise at all
I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small

[Chorus]
'Cause someone loved me
Someone fucking loved me
Someone fucking loved me
I loved them too
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I fuckin' earned something
I had a right to die
A right to live
A right to choose, too
And God no

[Spoken]
Of course, I don't wanna feel better *Laugh*
Can you fucking imagine?

[Verse 4]
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over it
I wanna rip the stars to shreds
I don't wanna feel better

Of course it hurt
Of course it fuckin' hurt
It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
That I was super scared
And we were all a train-wreck
And also somehow making it
I think I might've died there twice
And I would do it all again

I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine
Or I'm a healthy baby-girl
Who traded sunshine for disease
But when my head hit my cheap pillow
I could tell I had a heart
And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart

[Chorus]
'Cause someone loved me
Someone fuckin' loved me
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
Goddamn it, I was worth something
I fuckin' learned something
And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food

[Bridge]
I guess I loved you
I guess I really loved you
All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
And now you're over there
And I'm way over here
What am I gonna do?

[Verse 5]
I don't wanna feel better
No one's ever gonna love me like that again
I don't wanna get over you
I wanna sit with you in bed

I don't wanna feel better
(I don't wanna feel better)