Memories

[Chorus]
Yeah, because all the memories are here
Hopefully, the memories won't stay here
These thoughts will stay in the back of my head
Sadly, it's failing to stop these tears
From falling down onto my chest

[Verse]
Yeah
I don't want these memories to reign over me
Honestly, what's the point?
Started as a therapy, ain't really done much though
It's really only made things worse
To the point, I wanna die again
This my happy place
Lemme take that out this space
Leave that crap for the third album
Remember that ignorant kid?
Look at me now Adam
I'm actually making some quid
Open up your small lid
You might wanna see this
Wipe these memories out of my head
Might as well go
I don't wanna be constantly reminded about this part
This song doesn't link into the whole album
It's called a contrast
Do you ever realise what he did to my heart?
Only repaid it on Thursdays when we got Fish and Chips
That's British, right?
Go back to that question
We all know my dad broke it
That's fine until you start to go into relationships
And then you start overthinking things
And then your life spirals down
You talk to her friends because you're curious
Then you find out that they've been cheating on you with another guy
And then you start to get furious
And then your life starts to spiral further down
Then you start a grab a blade and then you start to cut your wrists until they're hanging off of your elbow
I'm only saying this from experience
You know the funny thing is, she's gonna call you hideous
Turns out she's just early on her periods
Maybe don't actually speak in the relationship and then you can't muck up
Her boyfriends are really gonna come through
I don't really like this, it's only been one day but I'm sorry to interrupt
What the hell are you playing at? I'm about to erupt
You should know that by now, I'm about to destruct
My feelings are now disrupt
My feelings are now corrupt
Thanks...
Sadly, it's failing to stop these tears
From falling down onto my chest
Honestly, why do they say it's for the best?
Now overthinking this has got me all stressed

[Verse 2]
Hey, I'm in Harrow!
You know I really hate being here
Why am I even here?
I am feared now (how?)
I am fear
I am here
I am dear
I am sincere--ly
Apologising for your death
See you're struggling with your meth
Now you're gonna be like 'Beth
Ah! The meaning of Shibboleth
Mess you up like my mental health
Spraying all your lean with no wealth
Raise it up like the commonwealth
You're getting hit with the strength
Now you're gonna plead the tenth?
Divide that tenth by 2, in-depth
Ha, when I had that in my head
That was so much quicker
Had more meaning to it
I guess when you're in a place you hate
It's slower
Seemed like with every girl you had, you control her
It wasn't like that with all your children
But it looked like I was the game and you were holding the controller
Now you're getting a little older, you little loner
Ha, in love with a 90-year-old
Man, I can't do that
Full of stupid lies with your crooked teeth
With what you're acting like, you've been sniffing mould
Now all of my friends are like, this went untold
Yeah well I'm sorry I bottle stuff up, I should have foretold

[Verse 3]
Now looking back at life, I kinda regret my decisions too
I never actually told my best friend the outcome of my view
That cursed image that my brain and my mouth had drew
Now looking back at that, I have no clue
Why I didn't actually tell him
Well, I guess I can't now
He was pushed to the brink and then killed himself
And there's only one person to blame for that
But I guess I blame myself for everything
But I guess I can't even trust oneself
When I know that I'm practically a murderer
Of a capable life, But it wasn't even my fault
We had a little fight
But there's no room here to fit this trite
Looks like my feelings are having a brawl
So I guess I should just end it all..

[Chorus]
Yeah, because all the memories are here
Hopefully, the memories won't stay here
These thoughts will stay in the back of my head
Sadly, it's failing to stop these tears
From falling down onto my chest